3.5.03
think the previous entry didnt make any sense...all abt this stupid sec 4 girl from another class who doesnt even mean a thing now....stupid. it's history anyway. actualli i feel quite scared. just insecurity, i dont know y though. i dont want to get myself involved in more nonsense cos im already stuck in more than enough nonsense. makes sense?
got a lot to do today...trying to read up R&J again....kinda forgot everything abt it...including who killed who and who died. tts how bad it is. wth. its going to be tough with onli one week away from exams. oh well...heck. yash, called u ystday but u were sleeping....so rare to hear that u're sleeping...haha...aniwae, ya, mebbe i'll just hear abt it on monday in sch.
oh...juz remembered sth..rupa said have to do the eng thingy right, and i think i dumped all the newsweeks in my table all into the class's dustbin. best man...i'm not sure if i threw the latest issue away though. ay...nvm...i'll just tell her i threw it away by accident and she'll definitely be so shocked....cos i think one shd nvr throw away reading material...they contain knowledge. hurhur...wad crap. but i still threw them away anyway. haix...realli mentally drained. i feel like sleeping but the thing is, i just woke up not long ago. *piggy*
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2.5.03
it started last year....early beginning of the year....sec 3....you just kinda flashed past amongst the crowd and somehow u stood out like a 3-dimensional picture, and there was this attraction abt you. it wasnt a crush...it was sth else...just an attraction i guess. though we were from different classes, i still often caught glimpses of you. i'd just shrug any feeling off when i saw you - thought it was nothing. i'd just look away and pretend nothing happened, as though i felt absolutely nothing. becos i didnt tell anybody abt it, i slowly stopped taking notice of you..and other people gradually came into my life. but all of a sudden, you're back. i m not sure for wad reason but memories and past feelings are being brought up again. its not sth that can last anyway. its just another one of those silly playful things that often occur in my life. passing phase...maybe that is just wad it is. i m now wondering if u even matter to me...i think you dont but sometimes it feels as if u do. am so confused. i like liked you.
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1.5.03
today was my sis's piano comp..was so taken aback ystday when my dad told me..i thot it was sunday. oh well, its over..and the usual power-packed ppl won....those china ppl...urgh...wadz new.
this guy - matthew mak...kinda remember him from last year's richard clayderman comp....he was there today...was so impressed by his playing before the comp started....he was practising this song in a room....damn nice lor....okay la, i was totally mesmerized that i almost went gaga over him. quite strange la...he's not one with looks....but somehow there was this big big attraction cos he could play the piano. not just play the piano but play it realli realli well. he didnt play the song that impressed me for the comp though..so i think he didnt stand out that much. and didnt win. sad sad. quite crazy la..last year when i saw him it was totally nothing..this year, suddenly so charming kinda thing....erbx...nvm...hard to explain. just had a so-called realli minor crush la. oh well....ridiculous...think guys who can play the piano realli have an edge over others who dont in that case - in my opinion that is. came back dead tired. no chance to study cos of the comp. when i came home, realised it was a weekday and of cos..i couldnt help but watch the 5:30 james lye show..wth..so wasted another hour...then napped for another hour...and watched my usual 9:00 show...so wadz left? almost nothing. that's all i did today. wth....am going to be so so dead for chinese....the most unprepared exam of all. *sobz* [no use crying over spilt milk anyway, wadz done is done] gdnite n good luck for the coming papers~
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29.4.03
my eyes hurt. dunno whether it's the shampoo or its because of my pathetic deteriorating [eh..i suddenly cant seem to figure out how to spell this idiotic word] eyesight. just remembered tt my sis has piano comp this weekend and im supposed to go support her. haha...oh well, i have to right..since she supported me too when i had my turn. hmmz...hope she wins sth and adds to our pathetic collection of piano trophies..haha..dad says that they'll be displayed in the new music room....oh well...think he's probably going to put the certs up also...hmmz..and im supposed to go check my eyes this weekend...where the hell will i find the time then? mebbe i'll consider making lenses..mebbe onli...since my eyesight's getting from bad to worse, cos i stubbornly refuse to listen to my dad's advice...have to try putting it across to my dad. think he'll agree....in fact, im the one who's delaying the whole process. so tired. eyes kept shutting during maths and bio. hell man...gek's voice realli has a soporific effect..ha..so sad. mid yrs begin this friday. -wow- time seriously flies. luckily there's labour day...for last minute cramming of chinese. argh..gtg do the silly geog mock thing now. sian.
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28.4.03
AHHH!!!!! :D so happy leh!!!!!! :D kaiwen just called me to say that she's got my nametag..hehhehex....yay...luckily my hoping wasnt wasted.....i had this premonition that she'd have it. yes!!!! KAIWEN, I LOVE YOU!! (though she'll never read this)....hahahah...yay yay! my darling is back...kw said that a stranger picked it up and passed to her..hahaha..wth...thanks to that beautiful stranger..... :D tai kai xin le!
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im updating for the sake of updating. cant stand my blog staying stagnant for sucha long time. today azlin didnt turn up for lit lessons. great. wasted time. today a lot of things happened...seemingly...very suay today...lost my nametag. so shit. first time losing it...thot i could keep it till after Os...*sigh* ...my dear nametag...im just hoping tt i dropped it at the busstop and kaiwen just sees it and picks it up for me. im not even sure where i dropped it anyway. think it dropped when i was taking out my wallet. urgh...my nametag. cant help but brood over it. today's realli quite a horrible day. hafing a headache now. wth...went back in the same bus as her today....yash..i saw the right person from the sch gate...it's her...didnt say anything again...haix....dunno when i'll ever be able to. didnt even smile to her. thot this time surely can le. aiyehx....but mebbe cos i wasnt in that good a mood and i was so sleepy with the headache. chatted with tw on the trip home...she aint that bad i guess..haha..i dunno...but slept half the journey la..haha...she also. tired ppl.........hopefully tml will be a better day. *hope* [sometimes i think im a little too optimistic]
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